Revival: Of Blog and Self

I'm quitting Facebook because frankly, it just isn't personal enough for me.  I love a good Buzzfeed video as much as the next person, don't get me wrong.  But, what I really want is to know about what is going on in the lives of my "friends", more than just what is on the surface.  I don't care who they'll be voting for in the upcoming election or how they feel about #theredcup.  I want to know how their days went.  What makes them happy?  What makes them sad?  What things are their favorite, beyond their favorite sports teams.

Facebook isn't cutting it for me; this is not how I want to connect with people.  I'm tired of being on the surface.  I want to meet for coffee.  I want to hand write letters.  (Let's be penpals!)  I want to interact in the here and now.  And in an effort to reciprocate what I wish I got from others, I'm going to be real and personal too.  I'm reviving this blog in an attempt to be real, with both myself and everyone else.  And if you are interested in knowing what that is, this is where you will find it.  This is where I'll put the things that bring me joy and be honest about the things that I am struggling with.  

One of the things that I struggle with most is being vulnerable.  I'd be happy to withhold anything personal about myself from anyone, and everyone.  It just feels safer that way.  But I can't go my whole life just playing it safe.  Risks are part of the adventure.  

So, let's be real and let's start here.

You can think of this post not only as a revival of this blog, but also a sort of revival of myself.  I have spent too long trying to be who I thought I needed to be, or who I thought other people wanted me to be.  Well, I think it's time that I figure out who I am, buried deep down inside, and who exactly I want to be.  Credit this to an existential quarter life crisis if you want, but I think it's a step in the right direction.  Bottom line, I want to spend more time connecting with people and trying new things.  

When people ask me what I do for fun I get embarrassed and anxious because I never know what to reply.  Does sleeping count??  I have nothing to answer, no go-to to fill in that blank.  I don't know how to have fun.  So I'm on a quest to learn how to have fun and find things that I like to do.  First up on that docket is using my camera more fearlessly and learning to enjoy the ups and downs of learning to take photos that I am proud of.

So, if you want to spend time with me and tell/ show me what you do for fun, I need all the help I can get.  So here's to learning, connecting, having fun, and getting comfortable in my own skin.

-KP